Restless

Definition

Not sattisfied to be at rest or in peace. Eager for change.

This is how I am feeling at the moment.

At first I thought perhaps this feeling is depression.

But, restless is the perfect way to describe it.

I think that it is brought on by the winter.

The lack of vitamin D.

It just feels like the mundane is happening.

Get ready.

Get Lily ready.

(which may or may not be a struggle)

Drop Lily off for school.

Work.

Come home.

Eat.

Watch TV.

(where nothing is on)

Read.

Bed.

Wake up do it once again.

Weekends.

Errands.

Eat out.

(spend way too much money on mediocre food)

So you get the idea.

I understand that life is filled with the mundane.

It's the little things that happen between the mundane that make up a life.

So what is it that I need.

A hobbie.

I know what I want my hobbie to be.

I like to take pictures.

I like to scrap.

Maybe it's a home improvement activity.

I know what I'd like to do.

Sometimes I think it's to add to my family.

I flirt with the idea.

But....

Truthfully

I can't imagine.

We have almost reached the point where we will have no more childcare.

I really can't imagine starting all over again.

My restlessness is up to me to cure.

So, today I vow to fix it.

I'm gonna get my errands done.

Then I'm gonna break up the mundane.

One little moment at a time.

Wish me luck!