New Beginnings

 

 

 

Life lessons are sometimes hard to learn.

We are learning this summer that when life

hands you lemons you make lemonade.

Our trip to Maui was supposed to be very different.

So we had to change some plans and that's just what we did.

We brought our friends Jake and Meg who are my family of choosing, along with  Nonnie and Papa and everyone had a wonderful time.  Really how could we have anything, but a wonderful time.

 

The ocean in Nor Cal shall never be the same.

 

 

 Nakalele Blowhole

more impressive than this picture looks.

 Blackrock nearing sunset

 Two of my favorite little ones.

 My girl.

I am so lucky to call her my friend!

I would be utterly lost without her.

 The best parents a girl can have they are my heart!

Lily and I are so lucky

 to have the most

supportive people surrounding us.

 Hike to dragons teeth.

There may or may not have been whining

near these teeth.

 But, they found their sillies.

We were in Maui after all.

People who are grumpy in Maui are detected

and sent home.

There are strict rules.

 If you are ever going to Maui with kids

might I suggest Napili Bay.

The body surfing is mighty fine

and the turtles swim right up to the beach.

 My Guatemalan Beauty

 One more shot of Napili Bay.

Everyone in the group learned to paddle board.

We all got a little wet in the process.

It was so much fun!

Dear Lily,
        You are my girl.  I love you with all my heart, to the moon, around each and every star, and back again.  I am so sorry that I have to write you this letter.  I'm so sorry that your little life has been upended.  I want you to know that I tried.  I want you to know that I gave our family every last ounce of effort.  Sometimes things don't work out.  I never ever wanted you to have a disjointed, separated family.  I always wanted to be the best we could for you.  So I am very sorry that adult problems got in the way.  I'm very sorry those adult problems could not be fixed.  I want you to know that these problems had nothing to do with you.  You are the best thing to ever happen to me.  You are my sun and my stars.  Never could you have done anything to contribute to what happened with your dad and I.  Here is what I do know.  We will be fine.  I will always be here for you.  Our lives will be different, but they will be good.  We can still make happy memories.  We've already started baby girl.  We can move forward.   Families are created in all different ways.  Ours is a little different now, but it is filled with love.  We are surrounded by people who love us.  You are surrounded by people who love you. 
         I'm going to keep our family scrapbook.  Just because our family looks different it doesn't negate the love that was in this space before.  Baby you are LOVED!!  Your first 8 years of life have been filled with love and laughter.  All that love is important, every mile stone made was celebrated by lots of people who love you tremendously.  You, my girl, will continue to be celebrated, cheered on, and supported.  You will always be my girl.
                                      Love you
                                 with all my heart,
                                        Mommy