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Saturday, March 23, 2013

Shamrockin' and thankfulness

Going through my recent transformation really has helped me see myself in a new light.  Somehow the pressures of work, marriage, motherhood caused me to loose myself.  For a month or so I was a single parent and I had to learn to navigate single motherhood as well as find myself.  During my process of change I found my true friends and I lost a friend who I thought would always have my back.  It's funny how friendships need to be tended to and cultivated.  I did not tend to that friendship.  I didn't have any time for friendships, I was lost.  I would like to thank my friend Meg who is not only my friend and my trainer but exemplifies true friendship she listened without judgment to everything I had to say.  She watched me cry and helped me slowly fight my way back from despair.  She gave me a lifeline and helped me reach my goal.  I still have a lot of work to do when it comes to being the woman I now know I can be.  A woman who is a good role model for a little girl who is looking for guidance.  A woman who knows what she wants and takes it.  I am still unpolished but not so rough around the edges.  Not only did Meg comfort me in some very dark days but she stayed with me until the end of my race.  I told her to run the race for herself but she insisted on staying with me.  I wasn't nervous before the race.  I said I ran 12 miles 13 wont be any different.  I'm so happy she didn't listen to me.  The last four miles of the run I was really hurting and feeling like I wanted to quit and running past people who had done just that.  Meg said we are almost there, I'm sorry, but I'm not letting you walk.  These people will all be sad that they are walking.  I don't know about those people, but I certainly would have been sad if I had given up.  My goal was to run the race and I met my goal.  My time was 2 hours 35 minutes.  That is a 11 and a half minute mile.  It is certainly not fast but now I have a time to beat! 

I also must thank my parents.  They also stood by me every step of my journey.  They picked up my Lily Pie every day after school.  They made her feel secure in a time she didn't understand.  They made me feel safe and they offered me a safety net if I needed it.  They did not judge my choices they only showed love understanding and forgiveness.  I am such a lucky girl to have them.  Not everyone has supportive parents I know exactly how lucky I am!  They also watched Lily each Saturday and aloud me to run.  They made me dinner several times a week so I could run after work.  I am truly blessed when it comes to mi padres.  So thank you mom and dad I love you so very much!  To cap off this journey they are taking Lily and I to Disneyland.  We are over the moon excited!  Stay tuned for some picture overload very very soon.

I am also thankful for my husband who decided his family was important!  He made some very scary decisions for our sake.  I love him so very much and I continue to be in awe of his accomplishments, his determination, I am a very lucky girl!

1 comment:

annette said...

I have always been proud of you. I see you're strength,
Determination, & I alway'ys feel you're love. My connection with you is strong and alway'ys be.
From the day you were born. My God. I was proud��.!!
To be with you made me so happy..Love to you and your family always. Mom